BEFORE SHE SHIFTS
I knew God. But something was missing.
I was born in the faith, baptized at the age of ten, and had always carried a personal love for and relationship with Jesus and The Father. But, I never knew I was missing a relationship with another equal and special person: The Holy Spirit. Yet life had taken me through seasons of constant rejection from people who became close to me, depression, abuse, and even homelessness. I had lived in my car and, at times, on my live-in job assignments.
Somewhere in that wilderness, I began realizing that although I knew God, there were places in my life
where I had been looking to people for what I needed to learn to receive through my relationship with Holy
Spirit. I had spent years seeking and expecting what felt normal to desire from those closest to me: love and
reciprocity.
I did not understand that Holy Spirit was not simply someone I acknowledged as part of my faith. Holy
Spirit is a Person with a ministry and assignments in my life that my ignorance and distractions were
blocking me from.
I was beginning to understand that there was a relationship with Holy Spirit I had never developed, and that
the ministry of The LORD in my life mattered.